Chapter 459 -
~ALARIC~
Get her the fuck out. Now. I was shouting it in my head.
Her words were driving the animal inside of me crazy. I didn't know why Clara chose to do this to me now out of all the damn days. I wanted her, but the circumstances didn't allow me to have her. My life was too damn complicated right now to allow her in. For her own good, I had to push her away.
I couldn't accept her offer, no matter how much I wanted to take it. I already had these images of her naked on my desk stuck in my filthy mind.
"It's time for you to leave," I growl as I grab her by her arm with one hand while I open the door with the other.
She tries to protest, but I push her out of the door. The second that she's outside my office, I drop to the ground and lean against the wall.
I wanted her; I couldn't even begin to explain how badly I wanted her. I wish things were different. I wish I hadn't messed everything up during the full moon. I wish I had never even gotten married to Nicole in the first place. My life went downhill the second I placed a ring on her finger. I was blinded for a long time, but now that Clara is in my life, I realize what true happiness feels like. She's the first woman that ever made me feel this way. She's the only woman not blood-related to me that ever showed that she truly cared about me. I didn't know how to explain it; all I knew was that the heat inside of me was all because of her. I couldn't get her out of my mind or my heart.
Now that Nicole was pregnant, it didn't look like I had a choice. I had to find a way to put my feelings behind me. I had a responsibility to take care of my baby. I was never a man to run from my responsibilities, and I couldn't change that now. I was already acting like a fucking fool for running from my feelings for Clara, and because of it, I messed up my entire life. I couldn't run anymore. There wasn't much place for me to run either way.
The rest of the day was a blur for me. I couldn't focus on anything at all. All I could think about was the fact that I had ruined my life in one night.
Nicole finds me after my last class and walks with me to my truck.
"We have plenty to talk about." She tells me as she jumps into the vehicle with me.
"Do you plan on coming home with me today?" I ask her. "What about your car?"
She sighs, "I had someone drop it home for me. I'm thinking about moving back into your house. Don't you think that will be a good idea now that I am pregnant with your child?"
I squeeze my forehead with my fingers, "Nicole, can you just give me some time to think about this, please?"
"What is there to think about?" She demands. "It's your baby. Do you not plan on taking responsibility for your actions?"
"Of course I do," I assure her. "You've been with me for a long time; you know that I will never abandon you or my child. It's just plenty for me to take in."
She sighs, "I need you, Alaric. I thought you would be happier than this. I'm giving you something special, and you know it. Don't let Clara ruin your dreams. She can't give you what I'm giving to you now."
My jaw clenches at the mention of Clara.
Fuck.
She was also stuck in my head. I was torn between doing what was right and what my heart wanted me to do. I'd never been placed in a difficult situation like this before.
"I promise I won't leave you at a difficult time like this," I tell her. "You don't need to worry about Clara either. This is between the both of us; you don't need to include her in it."
"I know she wants you." She continues. "She will do anything to make you hers."
I close my eyes; Nicole has no idea how much harder hearing that made things for me. Knowing there was a chance that Clara yearned for me only made me want her even more.
She places her hand on my shoulder, "If you want, I can tell her I'm pregnant. If she knows that you got me pregnant, I'm sure that she will leave us alone."
"Nicole," I growl. "This is not something that I'm ready to announce. Please give me some time before I can tell the people around me."NôvelD(ram)a.ôrg owns this content.
She hugs me without warning, and I stiffen under her touch. "Okay, if that's what you want, I'll wait. I'm so happy that you're back in my life, Alaric. I won't do anything again that will jeopardize our relationship, I promise you."