Chapter 16
Rachel
“This was all so fun, right,” I said, stretching the sore muscles of my arms.
“Tired,” asked Jayce, turning his head and looking at me.
I shook my head with a smile on my face. “I feel overjoyed, that’s all. I had never been so happy before, spending time with the people that loved me, having a warm family dinner, all these small pleasures that I never had in my life before you.”Content from NôvelDr(a)ma.Org.
“I feel the same, I’ll not lie, it wasn’t my first time having a warm family dinner, but it was my first since that day,” replied Jayce, with his eyes focused on the road as he was driving.
I nodded, “I know, losing a parent as a child is never too easy for anyone,”
Jayce nodded at my words, “No one knows that better than us,” he said, turning his face, giving me a small smile.
I shook my head, I didn’t want memories of our past to ruin our today, so I tried to change the subject, looking out the window, everything seemed so beautiful and shining in the night of the full moon, “It’s so beautiful outside.”
Jayce nodded at my words, “But inside it is more beautiful,” Jayce turned his eyes on me. “Very beautiful.”
“Don’t try to distract me.”
“I’m just saying the truth,” Jayce smiled.
I turned my head, acting annoyed, even though I liked everything about the new change in Jayce. I like how he is so open about his feelings through his words, he is trying very hard to forgo his past mistakes, and take steps for the new chapter of our relationship.
I should also be as open as him from now on, trying to express what is in my heart.
“Jayace,” I called, and he hummed at my words, with his eyes completely focused on the road. “Let’s not go home today,”
“Where do you want to go then,” asked Jyace, stopping on the side of the road with his face turned on me.
“I don’t know, anywhere far, where I can be alone with you, no one but us.”
Jyace looked surprised at my words, staring at me with concern, “Why…?”
“I don’t know but I want to be you alone, just you and me.”
“Rachel, I don’t know why…, what’s going through your mind, but if that’s what you want…., then let’s do it.”
“Thank you,”
“You don’t have to thank me, these past few years were stressful for both of us. Maybe a relaxing trip is what we need now.”
I nodded, maybe he is right. I don’t know, I just feel so overwhelmed now, I don’t know.
I don’t think I’m sane now. Why do I want to be alone with Jayce? I don’t know.
“Okay, we will do as you say, but first why don’t, let us go home,” Jayce said, holding both my hands in his, giving me a small smile.
I nodded at his words, consoling myself in the warmth of his comforting arms.
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“Welcome home,” Jyace said, parking his car outside his house, with a profound smile plastered on his face. “We missed you,”
“We…,” I questioned, not understanding his words.
“The house and me.”
“I was here yesterday too.”
“There is a big difference between yesterday and today.” He said, walking around and opening the door for me. “Yesterday we were alone but today we are together with each other. Together with the one we love. ” Jayce mumbled the last part with his mere centimeters away from my ears, alerting all my senses, sending goosebumps all over my body.
“Jayce…,” my voice came out, a mere whisper, being so close to him was making all my senses numb.
“Lets go,” he replied, holding my hands, walking, hand in hand in the house.
I don’t know why, I feel so overwhelmed, as my eyes roam on each and every space of this house, maybe because this place holds so many memories of us, even without being in a relationship. Jayce and Rachel had a bond that many don’t. So much time has passed since I last came to this place.
I know it was just yesterday that I came here, but it still feels very different. The emotions that I’m going through are very different. Being here reminds me of every little detail of the time I spent here with Jayce, as my mentor, a friend, a lover. I can’t describe how important the meaning of this place is in life.
“What happened, why are they so silent?” Jayce asked, distracting me from my thoughts.
I shook my head, “I feel overwhelmed being here, after so long.”
“I know, it’s been a long time for me too,” Jyace said, eyeing his surroundings.
“What do you mean? You live here right.”
Jayce shook his hand, pulling me on the couch with him, making me sit on his lap. “After you left, I stopped coming home completely,”
“Why?” I placed my head on his chest, as Jayce wrapped me in the warmth of his arms.
“Everything here reminds me of you,” he said. “I don’t know why, but things were getting so overwhelming for me that this house that was once feels like home. Starting to feel like a prisoner always makes me realize that I lost you.”
Jayce’s words sting my heart like needles. How can I be so selfish? I never once considered Jayace’s feelings, his emotions when I decided to leave him. He was fighting through so much all this time alone.
“You didn’t lose, I’m here with you. Right,”
Jyace nodded with a smile, staring at my face for a long time and then wrapping his arms tightly around me, as if at any moment I might disappear from beside him.
“Don’t you ever leave me.”
“Never…..,”