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I STAY where I stand. I couldn’t stop it anymore and my tears started to fall. I rubbed it with my palm and just in time Clyde turned to my side.
I saw his eyes widen when he saw me standing.
“N-Nathania?” it quickly ran to my location.
“Why are you crying? Are you fine-” I shook his hand when he was about to hold my hand.
“Don’t touch me.” I wiped my tears again.
“Nathania-”
“I want to leave this place.” I nodded and avoided looking at him.
I felt it stare at me. He was silent for a moment before sighing.
“What did you hear?” He asked so I stared at him again.
“Everything.” I answered and forced myself to be brave in front of it.
he took a deep breath and wiped his face with his hand. He nodded and stared at me intently.
“Nathania, let me explain-”
“I’ve heard enough Clyde. I don’t want to hear your explanations and lies.” I turned my back on it. I was about to walk away when he grabbed my arm and turned me to face him.
“Clyde let me go!-”
“No, Nathania! You have to listen to me. We have to talk.”
“I really don’t want to talk to you! What else are you going to say? Are you going to lie again? What are you going to tell me ? will you say you love me again? Can you please, Clyde? I don’t want to be with a liar like you anymore so get me off this island!” He let go of my arm.
“What you think is wrong, Nathania. Daniella is just nothing to me.” I fake laughed at what he said.
“Nothing? I heard you say you love him, Clyde. Don’t add more lies to me. “His jaw tightened.
“Just listen to me first!” I was stunned when it screamed.
I fell silent suddenly and did not move.
“Listen to my explanation first ! you don’t know the truth Nathania- ”Belongs to (N)ôvel/Drama.Org.
I didn’t finish him and I slapped him.
“Don’t yell at me, Clyde. You have no right to yell at me. Also don’t say I don’t know the truth. I know very well Clyde. I know the truth that you’re just lying. You’re pretending.. you said you love me, but the truth is you don’t. You love someone else.” I completely turned my back on him and walked away.
As I was walking fast, I felt his footsteps following me.
“Nathania, please listen to me first.” I did not answer him and continued walking.
“Nathania-”
“Stop me Clyde! I shouldn’t be the one you’re talking to right now. You should talk to and coax your fiancée! Go back to her because you’ve been looking for her over and over again. also apologize to him because you also lied to him. You said you didn’t have a woman with you here, but the truth is there is. I’m with you. Tell him the truth that you have your partner with you. And that fixture is me! “tears came out of my eyes so I immediately wiped them away.
“I’m not hooking you Nathania!”
“No way? I’m not stupid, Clyde. You already have a fiancée. You’re getting married. You’re getting married to Daniella so go back to your fiancée! Get me out of here! I want to leave this island ! in this place!” I stopped walking and faced him.
“The s-sick Clyde.” I couldn’t stop it anymore and the tears kept flowing down my face.
“I-I thought you were real. You said you loved me but it’s not true-”
“I love you, Nathania! I really feel for you! “I was shaken by what he said.
“After all I’ve heard? It’s hard to believe you, Clyde. It’s hard to believe what you say.” I opened my bedroom door and slammed it shut.
I locked the door and leaned against it.
I was pushed slowly while crying. I cried silently and clutched my stomach.
IM pregnant. I shouldn’t be sending my emotions. I shouldn’t be sending my anger. That’s bad for the child.
I heard a knock from the law.
“Nathania. I’m sorry. i know you’re mad at me right now. You can’t listen to my reasons yet, so I’ll let you get rid of your temper until you can listen to me. “He paused for a few seconds before speaking again.
“Please … Calm down first. You’re pregnant. maybe you’re angry because you hate me. Please, Nathania. I have my reasons. I admit, I lied to you. But I never lied when I said I love you. My love towards you is true, Nathania. Cool down first, then I’ll explain to you.” There was silence for a few seconds after he said that. a few moments later I heard its receding footsteps.
I looked up and wiped away my tears.
I no longer know what to do, Clyde. I don’t know if I will believe you or not.
I got up and went to my bed. I lay there and stared at the ceiling.
my heart hurts.
I wanted to tell him everything I was upset about but I couldn’t. I can not do it. I’m scared.
I can’t say everything I’m upset about because I’m driven by my chest pain. Because of the pain I was feeling, it was as if I could no longer speak. all I want is to cry and cry until I fall asleep and temporarily forget the pain. I thought I would be happy with Clyde and our future child. I thought there would be no more problems.
It turns out that what they say is true.
after fun, there is sadness in return.
My heart hurts so much. All I could do was cry.
I want to know the reasons for this. But I don’t know if I will ever believe him.
I don’t know if after he said his explanations I will believe it or not. I guess I’m already traumatized by its lies.
The trust I gave him he destroyed again.
To be continued…